2 days.

I typed a two in the title and a 28 appeared in the drop down box.

There was a time when I was 28 days away...now I'm two...HOLY WOW.

I had an awesome conversation with my baby today..and man he's soo good to be, like I just love him so much it makes no sense. He gave me some awesome words and calmed me down when I got stressed and worked up. He did all this after listening to me vent for 20 mins. I love him. I must do better by him. I've been so stressed I've been a less than great gf and that's not cool. He doesn't fault me though because he knows I'm going thru so much. I miss him so much..it's nuts.

And I also had a lovely chat with Kat today, she really cool I was glad I could be there for here and be someone she could have an adult conversation with. I'm gonna remember to pray for her as she endures this deployment.

And I'm forever grateful for the women that helped me in my time of need. I can't thank God enough for blessing me with them. I plan to make thank you cards tomorrow the least I until I can pay them back.

God has brought me thru so many struggles and I will remember his greatness each day I go thru basic.

$400

$400 is keep me from being an E-3....ugh.. I NEED my transcripts to get the proper rank..

I can't even begin to describe how upset I am.

I just wish I could catch a break long enough.

Come on Lord lead me thru this.

4days...

No more problems Lord...please...

6 days

I have 6 days until I leave and I have SOO much shit to do. I feel like a crazy person. I thought I'd be more relaxed right now...I'm not...at all.

I wish Patrick was here with me thru this..he'd make all this better. I'm pretty sure he'd just take care of everything. I've got such a good mad, sometimes I feel like I don't deserve him. Then I realize that every woman deserves a good man.

I'm tired though, I don't feel like I'm getting support from the people close to me that I should...idk...

IDK what to say.

Posted this on MM

But I wanted to post it here too.

I kinda just poured outta me.

2 weeks and 1 day.......HALF a MONTH and I am....gone...

HOLY FUCK!!!

Yall remember when I was saying 4 months, 2 months, 30 days, 3 weeks, I'm down to 2wks and 1 day...
:thud


The excitement builds up everyday. I'm googling shit left and right and call my recruit about random shit every other day....this week is gonna fly by because I work Mon-Thurs and then Friday-Sun I'm going out of town for my going away partying.

So this week will be last week of real posting and then after that I'll just be on facebook. April 12th I'm officially done communicating with the outside world, that day will be spent with my parents and grandmother and myself.

This is real....I'm crying...wow.

It has been a crazy week.

I just got back from a weekend in Atlanta for my aunt's graduation. I was really great to see some of my fam before I leave for Basic. Next weekend I'm going with the girls to Texas Relays it's gonna be my last wild weekend for a long time.

16 days man...WOW. I can't believe I'm just over 2 weeks away from something amazing. I sprained my ankle a week ago and it's still trying to heal up and I'm really worried it won't be 100% by the time I need to leave...I pray SO hard about it, it's insane.

Patrick and I went through a rough few days but we're back on track now. He was just all over the place and nowhere at the same time. I'm guessing he's dealing with me leaving and us not being able to talk on the phone for 2 1/2 months BUT I need him to be here for me...But we're 100% now and I'm glad. Although we are back on track he's on 15 days leave and will have limited phone access so that's not anything I'm looking forward to at all. Everything will work out the way it's meant to though.


16days.

Thoughts

I've reached the point where I've realized that some people are really only meant to be in your life for a season or two.

I'm just trying to focus on myself and my relationship.

Not too much to say today.


Maybe I'll add more later.

28 days

It's been awhile I've been pretty busy with work and just haven't had anything positive to add so I didn't.

Patrick and I are still doing fine, he's been pretty busy and stressed lately with school and then his internet at home is down so we haven't been able to talk as much. It makes me miss him more but we'll be back to somewhat normal soon before I leave.
Everyday it hits me that I'm getting closer and closer to Basic Training and I am SO excited. I'm not sure when the nervousness will set in [the bus ride up there I imagine] but I am so ready. I feel like my life begins April 13th. I have some amazing people in my life and I hope the ones that truly have my best interest at heart really stick by my side. I'm gonna miss being able to talk to my friends daily and Lord am I gonna miss sleep and home cooked meals ha. But 8 1/2 weeks and things ease up. Hopefully Tech school won't be too, too long so Lovey and I can plan for when we'll be able to see each other. Hopefully I'll be able to go to the Marine Corps Ball this year. 28 days and my life changes.

I feel like I'm pretty amazing.