Thoughts

I've reached the point where I've realized that some people are really only meant to be in your life for a season or two.

I'm just trying to focus on myself and my relationship.

Not too much to say today.


Maybe I'll add more later.

28 days

It's been awhile I've been pretty busy with work and just haven't had anything positive to add so I didn't.

Patrick and I are still doing fine, he's been pretty busy and stressed lately with school and then his internet at home is down so we haven't been able to talk as much. It makes me miss him more but we'll be back to somewhat normal soon before I leave.
Everyday it hits me that I'm getting closer and closer to Basic Training and I am SO excited. I'm not sure when the nervousness will set in [the bus ride up there I imagine] but I am so ready. I feel like my life begins April 13th. I have some amazing people in my life and I hope the ones that truly have my best interest at heart really stick by my side. I'm gonna miss being able to talk to my friends daily and Lord am I gonna miss sleep and home cooked meals ha. But 8 1/2 weeks and things ease up. Hopefully Tech school won't be too, too long so Lovey and I can plan for when we'll be able to see each other. Hopefully I'll be able to go to the Marine Corps Ball this year. 28 days and my life changes.

I feel like I'm pretty amazing.

VDAY Weekend.

Short and sweet;


Spent the weekend with 2/3 of my best friends D'Andrea & Angela). Went to dinner and a movie on Saturday and then lunch on Sunday.

Patrick sent me choc. covered strawberries and a big ass teddy. Next best thing to him being here. Just love him!!!



Going to the zoo tomorrow with 2/3 again {D'Andrea & Alethea) with the kiddos cuz its faaaareeee!! And just a good fun day out the house.


Overall been a good few days.

LDR part 2

This shit is getting old fast.

He's dropped another scenario on me.

Just when I thought I could start planning our life...I can't because things are changing again. WTF..Oh well I love him..things will work out. We'll be fine.

LDR

This LDR shit sucks. Every few weeks I fall into a funk, and here we go again. I've only cried twice this separation so that's a plus but damn...I'm sick of missing him. I just want him here or me there or us SOMEWHERE TOGETHER. ugh.

I don't shit else to add....

[sigh]

BHM

http://www.thegrio.com/black-history/thegrios-100/thegrios-100-teresa-king.php

Hello February.

So January overall was a sucky ass month. It had some high points. But overall it was a total drag. But January did mark 7 months into this year long separation. I have no idea how that's gonna work out, but it will. I love him TO DEATH. Speaking of love.


Ex decides its ok to message me on YIM and "propose to me" WTF?? He usually pops up every now and then to confess his love and affection and gets the same response ever time. I'm committed leave me alone. Deleted him from my YIM but it does me no good because of course I'm still on his..I'm even permanently invisible and he still messages me. Time for a new YIM name. Done & Done. But I just don't understand. It has been a LOOONG time since we've been together like AWHILE. How can one still be attached to another the way he is. Like his feelings are still strong like we just "broke up" (we were actually never official because he wasn't "ready for a relationship") I just don't understand what I did to him to make him this attached. I should feel flattered, but I'm not I'm actually feeling nothing but sadness for him. He could really make someone happy if he would just let me go. And then I made a status update about it and some girl asks "how does your bf feel about this" Girl you don't know my Lovey..he feels exactly how I do..laughing at it and moving on. He is in no way shape form or fashion insecure about my feelings for him. NOPE.

All of that made me appreciate Lovey's love for me and mine for him even more..it's just amazing.


Today was an overall good day. Each day I smile because I have such amazing people in my life. My MM girls being at the top of the list. They really came thru for me on my birthday and I've made some great friends [a few of you heffas are reading this so yes I'm talking to you lol]. I can't wait to look back on MM in a year and laugh at some old things and admire our growth and the things we made it thru [deployments, separation, family drama, pregnancy, etc] It's all pretty great.

I have 3 days off. I'm going to be productive with my life if this cold doesn't beat me down..my throat is sore..trying to fight it off..Must...Be..Strong..

Plan to mail of Lovey's CP..I suck at life..I'm gonna need to get a bigger box but keep it under 50 lbs.

Black history fact for the next 27 days to come.

-One Love.